PS! Sorry!

PS !  Little Pip's surgery went well!  He's walking around the house with a cone on -- SO CUTE!  And he doesn't really seem to be bothered wearing it, and so far isn't missing anything he once had :P  hehe

Tick tock, timing

Ok so I know it's been forever since I've really written on here, but I just fell out of the routine of blogging.  Nonetheless, I'm going to try to get back on board and write more often.  I definitely HAD to blog today.  For some reason, God struck me with Scripture today.  It was a tiny part of a verse that I would normally overlook, and I've read this passage numerous times before, and never thought anything of it.  So naturally, being that God opened my eyes to it today, I had to share it with you!  Here it is:

John 20:24-29 NLT
"One of the twelve disciples, Thomas (nicknamed the Twin), was not with the others when Jesus came.  They told him, 'We have seen the Lord!'  But he replied, 'I won't believe it unless I see the nail wounds in his hands, put my fingers into them, and place my hand into the wound in his side,'  Eight days later the disciples were together again, and this time Thomas was with them.  The doors were locked, but suddenly, as before, Jesus was standing among them.  'Peace be with you,' he said.  Then he said to Thomas, 'Put your finger here, and look at my hands.  Put your hand into the wound in my side.  Don't be faithless any longer.  Believe!'  'My Lord and my God!'  Thomas exclaimed.  Then Jesus told him, 'You believe because you have seen me.  Blessed are those who believe without seeing me.'"

First off, wow.  It never ceases to astonish me that this man (Thomas) left his entire life to follow Jesus in his ministry, and then doesn't believe when Jesus rises from the grave.  I mean, the whole time Jesus is preparing his disciples.  He even poses the question to them, who do they think He is?  So let's just realistically picture this.  You hear about this man who (in that time period) has this radical claim of being the Son of God.  You meet him.  He IS the Son of God.  You leave everything except the clothes on your back to follow this man.  And then, when He does what He says He's going to do (be crucified and rise again), you don't believe it!  Whatttt!!  I mean, I understand it's hard to grasp, but you left everything, why start doubting now?  Ok ok.. but that's not the part that God struck me with.. 

When you're feeling down, lost, or don't even know God but you're looking for him, the Bible tells us that we can have direct contact with him.  HE will reveal himself to you if you ask.  "Come near to God and he will come near to you."  James 4:8 
How awesome that after EVERYTHING Jesus Christ endured for you, for me, for Thomas -- He still revealed himself to Thomas.  Thomas didn't believe, but God still took the time to make direct contact with Thomas -- giving him exactly what he needed.  He didn't say Oh well.. I told you.. I died for you.. became unrecognizable for you.. and now this is how you repay me? forget you. --- nope.  I LOVE that God has compassion for us.  Here's the part that struck me though.  "Eight days later the disciples were together again," -- EIGHT DAYS LATER.. Jesus was going to meet Thomas' need, no doubt about it.  But Jesus didn't go to him that night, the next day or even the next day.  God has perfect and divine timing even if we can't see how or why things sometimes take longer than we would want.  But then again, we also can't see our lives stretched before us.  Many times people want to find God, but pray, and without getting an obvious immediate response, give up.  I am urging you --- if you are looking for Jesus, even if you aren't lol -- pray with patience!  The Bible tells us to pray without ceasing.. aka pray, pray, pray!  You might not think that God is drawing near, but he will speak to those repentant hearts that are seeking him.  Don't be discouraged if you don't get that immediate - on the spot - God moment --- He may be speaking to you in soft, quiet ways, that you just haven't learned are Him, yet.  Also, get together with a strong Christian -- a friend you know, a pastor, a leader in the church, whatever.  Even if we're not friends, I'm always down for a conversation.
OK, so basically... Believers, DON'T BE DISCOURAGED!  Trust that God's timing is the best timing (easier said than done, but you can do all things through Christ who gives you strength!)

I don't have to worry about timing because God is love.

OH! P.S.

P.S.  Little Pip goes to get neutered tomorrow!  I know it sounds kinda crazy but please pray for him!  I feel sooooo bad having to bring and leave him there for surgery.. he's my little baby lol so yeah.. please pray everything goes well!

bla...

So .. I don't feel that good.  My breathing isn't terrible, but it's not great.  And I'm so tired... and just so bla.. The biggest struggle is waking up.  I don't want to.  I just want to like sleep and relax all day.  I hate waking up knowing I have therapy and lots of coughing in front of me.  I don't cough when I sleep .. and it's so nice.. but as soon as I wake up, the coughing starts.  Bla.. But God is nice through it.  He lets me complain to Him even though I have so much to be praising Him for!  I know He's sad with me, and it's comforting to think that He's stinking around for all of this --- my complaints, bad moods, laziness, coughing, everything.  AND yesterday He got the AMC Loews on RT 1 to donate popcorn to the Easter Egg-Strav!  Thank You God!  Well... that's basically it for now.  I'm doing treatments now.  Once I'm awake my mood is a little better.. but it's just getting to be awake that's hard, I guess.  Praise God nonetheless.

I have a comforting friend through everything because God is love.

writing for the sake of writing

I don't really feel like blogging haha but I haven't written on here in soooo long.. so I'll just say this.  I love how God loves us. :]

God loves us because God is love.

Father, Daddy? D

So I'm not breathing wonderfully, but not terribly.  I haven't needed oxygen during the day for the past few days now, but I still need it when I sleep.  But!  Saturday night was my neighbor/friend/like my little sister's sweet sixteen!! AHH!  She looked absolutely gorgeous!  It was a great party -- and how nice is God that He even gave me breath to dance!  Great night.  Sunday I had breath, too!  I went to church in the morning (without doing my therapy.. ok so that's not a great idea, but I overslept and didn't want to miss it) but I didn't choke.  Then the fellowship lunch was fun, and then I came home, and STILL had breath and energy!  And on top of that, it was sooo nice and sunny out, so I cleaned out the inside of my car -- it was GREATLY needed.. hahah.   Monday I went to class, and wasn't breathing like darth vader!! Usually when I'm walking to class, I'll be breathing soo loud and soo heavily.  But I wasn't like that!  God blessed me with such a nice professor - very understanding and willing to work with me.  Praise God!  After class I talked with some classmates and then picked up pictures of my neighbor's sweet 16, sorted them, cleaned my room a little, and then went next door to give them the pics!  Even that was such a blessing.  We don't hang out often, and I can't remember the last time I just hung out in their house with their fam, but last night we did.  And, their aunt (probably my favorite relative of their's haha) is visiting.  I know it sounds cliche to use the word 'blessing' so much, but that's the only way I can describe it.  I loved being able to spend time with all of them just relaxing.  Anyway, I didn't sleep with my oxygen last night.. I know, I know, I should have.  But it's like a lose -  lose because I can't sleep with the oxygen on, and if I sleep with it off, I feel sick when I wake up.  So I felt sick, and veryyy tired, and slept basically all day except for my therapies and meals.  Finally I had to get up for my IV, and by then I was ready to be awake!  Did some dishes, and read and prayed.  I don't know what is wrong with me lately, but I just feel like I'm putting off praying and reading and stuff.  It's terrible because I long to be in the presence of God, be with Him, but then when it comes down to it, I fill my day with other things.  So please pray about that and about being molded and sensitive to the Spirit.  Thanks guys!  Anyway, all I have to say is that Jesus Christ is AWESOME!  Praise Him, praise Him, praise Him!  I had such a nice time with Him (once I finally got around to it.. ugh.) .  I just LOVE how He loves us!  It's not a love like any other.  Bahhh.. Just think.. Like can't you just imagine being in His loving arms.  Talking, laughing.  He is our Heavenly Father.  He longs to cradle us, spend time with us, love us.  Sometimes when people think of words, certain associations follow.  Just as Juliet didn't get caught up in this (a rose by any other name WOULD smell as sweet!), we shouldn't either. Many times the word 'father' has the connotation of a stern and mean parent.  But say the word Daddy, and you think of an intimate relationship between the child and their 'daddy'.  A positive, loving relationship.  That's what our Father is.  He is a daddy, and just as earthly fathers want to lavish their children with gifts, so does our Heavenly Father.  Matthew 7:11 "So if you sinful people know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your heavenly Father give good gifts to those who ask him."  Bahhh Jesus <3

I have a Heavenly Father because God is love.