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hello again! I have a lot to fill you in on, but right now there's just ONE thing i wanna talk about. ill save the catching up for next time.

I was talking to my sister today about how God is good and for some reason God brought this to my mind.  People constantly pose the question of "if God is good, how can (insert whatever here) happen?"  in my case.. if God is good, how come you have CF, or why hasn't he cured you?

To be COMPLETELY honest, i'd have to say i don't know.  I mean i know that it's for his glory and purpose, because Jesus doesn't allow a single second more suffering for his followers than is necessary for his purpose.  so let's say there's some grand reason that i have cf, which i believe there is - i just don't know all the details of it -- as soon as that grand reason is finished -- so is my CF. not a seccconddd longer. i know it's kind of hard to grasp, but that doesn't make it any less true, or any less amazing.

So i know that theres this good reason for my CF besides all the "little" things like making me stronger, being able to help/sympathize with others, and establishing character and hope. (Romans 5:3-4 ³ Not only so, but we^[a] also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; ⁴ perseverance, character; and character, hope.) But then God reminded me of how personal he is at the same time.  Yes, i want my life to be about him and HIS glory.. but i think it's sooo nice how he still gives us victories at the same time.

Now I don't mean this in a prideful way, but how many people can say they've danced at Madison Square Garden, or at Continental Airlines Arena? 

Not everybody that you walk up to on the street can say they have.  Now how much cooler is it, how much more victorious and fulfilling that I have... WITH cystic fibrosis.

I have cystic fibrosis, and i've danced for the women's Liberty basketball team.  I have CF and I've danced for the NETS. I have CF, and God gives me victory over it.

What will God give you victory over if you choose to let him?

Hardships, CF, (insert your suffering here), never have the advantage because God is love.

John 1:5  The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness can never extinguish it.