Helloooo! These past few days I've been improving! I am sitting up more, sleeping less during the day, and walking around a little more and more steadily! I have more energy, too. All good things! (Reminder: I could still use your prayers! I'm improved meaning from the state I was in prior.. I am still in need of a double lung transplant, and very weak. I don't want to be a downer .. but some people don't understand the magnitude of the disease that when I say I'm doing better.. it doesn't mean I am healed.. I'm happy to be doing better than I was but I still need a double lung transplant -- so i'm obv not in tip top shape over here haha)
Ok so now that awkwardness is over, haha I wanted to tell you how God is encouraging me. He's so nice! So.. my bestie, June, had made me a welcome home poster but unfortunately didn't get to bring it to my house for when I got home. She took a pic of it and sent it to me. I loved it but she was a lil bummed that she had planned on giving it to me that day and wasn't able to. Fast forward about a week later. June went to our church for service on Sunday as usual, but she brought the poster, and a bunch of my church family wrote encouraging and loving notes to me on it. How uplifting! Thanks guys!! After service, June came over and was thrilled to finally give me the poster she had made which was now enhanced with all the love from our church fam as well. And God, in his quiet and yet reassuring way, brought encouragement from it.
June wanted to give me the poster last week and was upset when that didn't work out. But now that she had waited the week, our church fam got to sign it and be part of it. Had June rushed, and given it to me, I never would have gotten the blessing of all those loving messages on the posters. She waited, and got to give me so much more than she had even thought of before.
I want transplant now. I wanted it yesterday lol and God just used this situation to remind me that in HIS perfect timing not only will I get what I was expecting, but he will give so much more on top of that. I can only imagine so much about my new lungs and life afterwards, and it's hard to wait because all of that seems so great for right now! But God has a plan that goes beyond what I mustered up thinking about, and to bring about that abundance, waiting is necessary. But how nice of Him to reassure me, and remind me. Like my own little personal parable haha but it's not just for me -- if you're going through a waiting period, remember to keep walking in relationship with the Lord, and remember that the waiting is just the extra fruits ripening; the extra flowers blooming; the abundance that you couldn't even think of but the Lord wants to bestow upon you. bahh it's exciting to think about the surprises he has for us!
In the waiting times.. it can be hard to draw closer to God because we don't understand why he's withholding from us what we think is the best for us. But that's when it's especially important to draw even closer to God.. Cuddle in close, and remember what he's promised.
Psalm 84:11 (NASB)
For the Lord God is a sun and shield;
The Lord gives grace and glory;
No good thing does He withhold from those who walk uprightly.
He doesn't withhold anything good from those who call him King and live like it. He doesn't withhold anything good from his children. He promises <3
So even though I'd rather have my way in my time.. I know what he has in store will be worth the wait.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i6X71sXagUY -- thought of this song - check it out
I am hopeful in waiting because God is love.
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