The desire and prayer of my heart throughout my life was
(and still is) "Lord, show me your glory"
After getting transplanted blessings have just
been flooding my life. It's completely wonderful and completely overwhelming
all at the same time. My life is filled with dreams that I had nixed off long
ago. As my death sentence became more
and more real, I stopped having dreams for the future. (I often refer to
Casting Crowns' "Let Me Dream for You" song to explain this better - look it up.. not only is it sooo good.. it's SOOO true!).
Life is more incredible than I could ever have dreamt it to be. I wasn't restored, things aren't back to
normal, and I don't feel "good". God made my life like I have never,
ever known it. My health is better than
it has ever been. I dont have to
struggle, work, or think about breathing.
Life isn't normal. I no longer
have to do hours of breathing treatments and chest therapy that I had been
doing since I was 5 months old, I don't have to have a "feeding tube"
in my stomach because of being malnourished, and I don't have to sleep sitting
up, do IVs, or have anymore broken ribs.
I don't feel good... I feel AMAZING.
So many blessings, and so many of God's promises were
brought to fruition through transplant and I don't even know about all of them,
or all the work God did in the unseen to orchestrate everything that He did.
I know I've said that a million and a half times.. but here's where I'm going with it this time ----->>>>
My lungs failed.. My life support had stopped working
properly a couple of times.. I was in pain even my nightmares couldn't dream
up.. I was ready -- even asking God why he was keeping in this state and not
just letting me die...
I didn't realize it then.. but as strong and visible as
death was, Jesus had already claimed that hospital room to be filled with His
Glory. And just when the hand of death
was ready to strike, the Lord put up his shield of protection and came
"like a flash of lightning" letting death and everyone else know that
He was in the battle from the beginning and He was NOT backing down now.
The LORD will FIGHT for you, you need only
to be still -Exodus 14:14
So tonight I'm listening to Third Day's "Show Me Your
Glory" and thinking back about all of this. I can still remember like it
was just yesterday asking him why he was making me endure all that was happening.
But unlike when it was happening, I can hear his soft and compassionate voice
answering my heart's plea...
"Because I'm showing you My Glory."
The Lord is true to his promises no matter what storm we are
in. Although it may seem impossible to
keep fighting through the storm, remember.. Jesus still has control of storms,
and He himself FIGHTS for you. But most
importantly... The Lord holds true to his promises.
My heart's desire was to see His Glory.. And he held true to
his promise.
"Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the
desires of your heart". Psalm 37:4
God gave me my hearts desire because God is love.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z_e3aJLRsdc (<<--- Third Day youtube video for "Show Me Your Glory")
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R8nsJZx8eWw (<<--- Casting Crowns youtube video for "Dream for You")
