I'm going to jump right in to what I'm thinking and pray that the LORD is using my fingers and keyboard as his tools.
So today I was reading my devotional and the Scripture that was paired with it was Psalms 19:1-4a
"The heavens proclaim the glory of God.
The skies display his craftsmanship.
Day after day they continue to speak;
night after night they make him known.
They speak without a sound or word;
their voice is never heard.
Yet their message has gone throughout the earth,
and their words to all the world."
Brace yourselves for something totally out of the ordinary! -- also, please pick up my incredibly heavy sarcasm there -- because obviously what comes to mind is... you guessed it! --- My times on life support!
I apologize if I repeat stories I've already told a million times, and I know I've already written before about how God can still hear you when you can't speak, and he can and will use your silence as much as he can use your voice, and sometimes silence can be even louder.
I couldn't make a sound, or word. The tracheotomy prohibited any air from reaching my vocals cords, and therefore, I couldn't talk no matter how hard I tried... and being a Gorsky... I tried VERY hard to talk :P
But seriously.. my voice was never heard. And yet, it was during this time that my life proclaimed the glory of God like it never had before. It was when I had no vocalization that my life continued to speak day after day and night after night my silence made God known.
Just a disclaimer as well -- I had nothing to do with this. I wasn't laying there like "oh yeah... I am so going to silently proclaim God's glory today with this life support!" Just like Psalms 19:1-4 says, it's what GOD has created that brings him glory because it displays his craftsmanship. It reminds me of a great art museum -- people go to see the textures, colors and creativeness used in the paintings as they are displayed for the world to see. The same is true with our lives -- God is the greatest artist of all, and in our lives are the most intricate details, vivid colors and creative layouts. Our lives display God's craftsmanship - in fact.. we are even called God's workmanship! Look up Ephesians 2:10.
The way God laid out my life's painting was to bring him glory through the storm. I am incredibly honored to look back and realize all the ways Jesus let my life display his works, and realize the privilege it was to proclaim his glory silently but loudly.
But that brings me to where I am now -- very much able to talk, and very much so utilizing that ability haha. So it makes me think..
Now that I have a voice to glorify the Lord with my words and sounds, how am I choosing to glorify him without my voice as well? It is a wonderfully blessed gift to be able to shout his praises and talk to him aloud -- but I don't want to be limited in the way my life speaks of him and to him -- I want both. I want to "continue to speak" in every aspect of my life -- both the verbal, and the silent.
I want my lips to speak the goodness of the Lord, and when words are too many, or aren't enough... let my silence be glory.
" Many, LORD my God, are the wonders you have done, the things you planned for us. None can compare with you; were I to speak and tell of your deeds, they would be too many to declare. "
Psalm 40:5
Our lives display God's glory because God is love.
